Different colours, different shades*

The track was carved too shallow to follow
but still remains & always will;

water warmer than blood & a bandage
of elastic bands & any paper
to be found proceeded by dreamless sleep.

In the morning a red-stained scene
of failure & a shame deeper
than the track that missed its path by an inch,
& lead instead to survival.

Weeks passed without a word
until, where the track ends
something was discovered
to be beautiful & trembling with life**,
in unknowing defiance of winter.

Then a morning came when
I awoke to the smell of your skin, &
the hope
that the journey would never be
attempted again

until the time was right
& the endless night would arrive

in due time.

*New Dawn Fades – Joy Division

**Three Peaches – Neutral Milk Hotel

“I remember when we were young”*

“With rebellion, awareness is born.” – Albert Camus

When we were young
They told us
"Never look directly at the Sun".

& for a while we didn't.

Not from deference
to the authority of parents,
but out of reverence
                for the warmth:

It was the animal – the It
& not the I – that compelled us
to wear the warm veil of our eyelids
when we dared to approach the source
of all light & benevolent warmth…

…but we're not young anymore, so
we looked & what we saw
changed us forever.

                Now
we stand before ancient energy,
a violence our gaze can never meet,
as small animals
                lost
in a fatal & final ecstasy
of rebellion.

But I remember
when we were young.

*Insight – Joy Division